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As we recently celebrated another Mother’s Day, I got the chance to sit and think about Mother’s Days in years past.  On the morning of Mother’s Day, 2009, I woke up to hear twin babies cooing and their big sister telling them “Boys, it is Mommy’s day today”!

When I peeked into the twins’ room, I saw the two of them each in their cribs standing and staring in awe at their big sister, who was dancing in the middle of the room.  I couldn’t help the tears streaming down my face and the huge smile I had from ear to ear said it all – I am truly one lucky Mama!

I was immediately brought back to Mother’s Day eight years ago.  I cannot believe how time flies, and I also cannot believe how much my life has changed in those eight years.  That Mother’s Day of 2001 was one of the worst days of my life, and I couldn’t see past my pain.  I would have never thought these last eight years would be so wonderful.

In January of 2001 I had an Ectopic Pregnancy.  My baby never made it to my uterus and was in my left fallopian tube.  Within a week of learning I was expecting a baby, I was heartbroken to learn that not only did I lose the baby, but I wound up in emergency surgery where I lost that tube.  Only two months later, I was thrilled to learn that I was expecting again.  And just six days before Mother’s Day of 2001, I went for my three month OB visit only to learn that my baby had no heartbeat.  At the time, I was married to a man who was not very supportive, and my life felt like it fell apart.

I remember going in for my second surgery in three months.  As the anesthesiologist was introducing herself to me before being wheeled into the OR, I was in hysterics.  I remember her saying “Don’t worry, next Mother’s Day you will have that baby in your arms”.  And I thought that was a very cruel thing to say, for she couldn’t possibly predict that I would have the baby, and with my current track record, it didn’t seem feasible.  But she was right.

Juliana was born in March of 2002.  She was the most perfect little girl I had ever seen, and she was mine!  And on that Mother’s Day, I spent the whole morning holding her, thanking her for making me a Mommy.  Juliana is now seven, and she is such a lovable little girl.  She was so proud this Mother’s Day to bring me the vase of flowers she made for me in art class along with the card she drew and the Mother’s Coupons saying she would be my helper all day.

In the years that followed, I went through a nasty divorce.  Juliana was only three years old when we left, and although I wanted more children, I knew the best thing to do was to leave, and I hoped that some day I would be able to find someone special to have another baby with.  I met Paul and we married in early 2007.  Paul had a sixteen year old son and had also always wanted more children.

For almost a year we tried to conceive a child together.  Since we both had children before, we experienced secondary infertility.  We did fertility shots and IUI.  And one of the biggest shocks of my life (to date it was the second shock of my life) was when we learned we were expecting TWINS!

Louis and Anthony were born in July of 2008.  I had been on bed rest and in preterm labor for almost two months before they were born at 36 weeks.  I was very lucky to have kept them in there so long and they were born healthy and beautiful.  Juliana was thrilled to be a big sister, and Paul and I knew our family was complete.  Well, we thought we did.

My boys were only six months old when I missed two periods.  After losing pregnancies and experiencing infertility, I really doubted I was pregnant.  And the reproductive endocrinologist said to Paul and I after we conceived the boys that we wouldn’t have been able to get pregnant without treatments!  Well, he was wrong!  I took two tests and they were both positive.  It was the biggest shock of my life.

For three weeks I was very depressed.  I had no idea how I was going to manage, and although I was on the fence whether or not I was done having children, the thought NEVER crossed my mind that it would be this soon!

I am now five months pregnant with baby number four (Paul and I will have five children all together).  I still have no clue how I will manage, but I am getting excited over this new baby’s arrival.  Juliana is thrilled (she loves her brothers and is a great big sister) and the babies will be more like triplets than twins with a 15 month younger sibling.  Stay tuned for more about our life with four children! 

Jennifer
Mom to Juliana (7), Louis (9m) and Anthony (9m)
Expecting #4 in September!
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